wow i'm really bad at this blogging thing.....

school's been going on for two weeks now, first two weeks of my 12th grade year! yay! but there's still so much longer to go...can you believe school uses up almost 10 months of a year?? sigh...
arg then all those decisions come...where to go, what to study, hm, what do i wanna be when i grow up? darn those decisions, i hate having to make decisions. but then it would stink to have someone else decide what your life will be.
my options right now are kinesiology, journalism, some kind of art or design, maybe industrial design or architecture or somthing. or i could take a year or two off of school and do missions aboard the Logos, a ship that sails around the world doing missions and selling Christian books. the missionaries have to raise their own support, though, which is a lot if you're gonna travel for a whole year. they have their own duties on the ship, for example, cooking, or engineering, outreach, etc. it sounds so exciting-- i got to visit the ship when they stopped in costa rica, and met missionaries from france and japan and nepal, etc etc. and they told us that that year they went to germany, brazil or argentina, and some country in europe...norway or switzerland or something of the sort. anyways, imagine all those people from all over the WORLD coming together and ministering all over the world!! how amazing is that?! i went to ranger camp and met people from other places in ontario and it was already so amazing...imagine the GLOBE coming together!!
There was this other program too, called Katimavik.It got people from different provinces, about a group of 12 or so, and they go to three different provinces for 9 months to work, staying in each for 2 months. no wait, that doesn't work out...well anyways that's not the point. they work for charity organizations in the provinces, but they don't really get paid- only about $3 a day and at the end of the nine months they're awarded $1000. all living and eating expenses are paid for by the government, though. great work experience. so i'm considering that too...the only downside (is that right? shrug) is that there probably wont be a church community around for support. spiritually, i mean. if i could barely go two months, what would 9 do to me???
anyway....i'll stick with high school for now. i challenged myself to enjoy this year, and so far, it's good i think. :)
daniel fellowhsip too, i don't know if i'm prepared to be a leader. i've always been more of a follower, and whenever i am a leader i tend to bring attention more to myself than to God. i pray for humbleness. for his spirit, for guidance.