listening to a song

"and You calm my raging seas,
and you calm the storms in me,
....all i know, is i find rest in You."

wishing it could happen. know it's my own fault. but yet....=/

no..it's not all about schoolwork.

"your grace is all i need....
your grace is all i need...
your grace is all i need..."

=(

[edit 5 mins later]. i never realized how hard it was to be honest on the blog until something acutlaly came up.

3 weeks to go....
7 exams...
2 much work...

=( almost there.

" i love this man "

i don't like forwards..so i post them here. first time i've received this one....i like!

"I LOVE THIS MAN"
No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.

No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.

And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE .

at least part of the forward. it talks about Jesus, by the way....acknowledging him because you love him.

Matthew 10:32
"Whoever acknowledges Me before men, I will acknowledge him before My Father in heaven. But whoever disowns Me before men, I will disown him before My Father in heaven"

oh. and you know what's disgusting? Other people's head grease on the window beside your head. noticed twice on the ttc today....now i know not to lean head on windows, etc.

i went for a jog this afternoon...

and afterwards i stayed in the shower

....for as long as i had jogged. XP

stomach cramps cuz i had no food in my stomach.

oatmeal + ovaltine + cheerios = mmmmm

and then a bowl of raisin bran crunch.

stomach ache because i had too much food.

lately.

CCSA.
cheer harder, love more, pray more, speak up more, play harder, try harder. not gonna shy away and pretend i suck when i don't. or not be afraid to suck when i do. just to improve and play my best. every game...every devo...not afraid to ask for help. need it.

by the way, Numbers 24 mentions "oracle" many many times.

it could wait.

URBANA...not just another spiritual high. make sure of that.

PLAN FOILED!! was gonna take friend to SNA, kinda...intro to church, i guess. but turns out she's not going cuz of too much work (tho i have the same amt)...=(

-been trying to focus on my relationships with my nonChristian friends, instead of always hanging in the Christian circle...how can i be a better...beacon?

SPiRitual Gifts...teacher was pleased when i told her i had filled out a spiritual gift inventory to include in my portfolio (yea, nurses have portfolios too). =)

horrible sleep patterns....

been talking a lot more to some people, and a lot less to others.

missing them.

or missing out.

oh yea. i finally watched NACHO LIBRE. i can stop quoting it...NOW.

It's funny because, looking back, this year has been very...very self-focused. fine, selfish.

well, why not, the theme of Year 1 nursing IS "Self"...

to get to know yourself so you can serve others better.

then i take the spiritual gifts sunday school.

which is even more focused on self. =)

hehe.

what can you say...

..or do...for someone who is hurting, who's going through tough times...
how do you encourage someone you can't relate to at all?

i remember reading this verse, to let God do the encouraging or relating....Lamentations 3:1,20ish
"1 I am the man who has seen affliction...[goes on to specifics]...
19 I remember my affliction and my wandering,
the bitterness and the gall.
20 I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
21 Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
22 Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him."
25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD. "

...it's hard to believe that when you're in a rut isn't it? to look forward to the next morning, no matter how many more problems you have...cuz his forgiveness, his compassions are that much more also. it's hard...cuz it's so intangible. (no i didn't mean to have an answer for this. maybe you have a comment?)

i've been opened up to a couple lives this week...aspects that i haven't really seen before...
PRAISE GOD for what he's done...what he is yet to do...
but also fall down before Him and plead for these people.

even though i wasn't able to give advice...maybe God's been trying to teach me the values of silence.
i usually give bad advice (chris, 2006) anyways...cuz i'm pretty non-objective in approaching anything. is it that i side with people too easily, is that why people approach me to talk about stuff? so gullible..yes i care..i care tremendously....but that also means i trust too easily. in my mind everyone's good, and everyone's honest. (hyperbola) it's hard for me to distinguish between lies and truth...especially when it's not the whole truth. a while ago i was thinking about this, and the phrase that i'd been using the most was "what a jerk". been trying not to make comments like that lately, but ..yea. still trying XP
like albert said though...the judgment doesn't matter as much as what your actions are in response to it.

on a lighter note....cheers to superman! (aaaaahhhhhhh!!!!) and nacho, while i'm at it.