going back to ranger camp, although it was a great learning experience and i got to know a whole lot of people, it was very spiritually depressing. being the first time i've been in a nonchristian community, it was hard to stay focused on God and take a few minutes to talk to him. praying at mealtimes slowly faded, as did my awareness of, well, ungodly thoughts. sure, i had a christian roommate, but unfortunately never got the chance to talk to her about it. or anything else, for that matter. mentioning the name "Jesus" seemed awkward on my tongue, and the "God" that i heard was an outburst of exasperation instead of awe. *sigh*
coming back to church and hearing prayer said aloud was kind of inspiring in a way, but it sounded really wierd. and saying a prayer aloud was even wierder. well, i have to admit, since the camp, i've never appreciated christian community more. having encouraging people around is SO comforting!!!
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You going back? don't you have school coming up?
hey daniella...
yeah i know what you mean... i'm glad though that you were able to be encouraged after that experience. God works in funny ways to have us appreciate Him more and the family He's blessed us with. Hope you're alright now =)
i had something before that, totally unrelated, but i backspaced it. hehe..yay for commenting!!:)
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