Once again, my whole list of summer goals was not completed. not a single one of them.
This summer, i've found myself an energetic, joyful person.....but so apathetic about faith, about living it, studying it, understanding it.
i've been questioning where my passion and gifts lie. On the last T-wide, Julie said something extremely encouraging to me...."Dani, you're like the most wanted person at ET. on any sports team, any ministry team, everyone wants you..."
whoa, no way. that was a really amazing feeling, a dash of pride in there....but to know that also made me feel a little ashamed of where i was at the moment.
so where do i go? where will i find my joy and my fuel?
where will i find that thing, that i think about all the time and want to recreate and better and immerse myself in??
I talked to a friend at banquet, who had come back from a missions trip at jane and finch. He said the thing he learned was that there are so many Christians who are sitting on their butt doing nothing about everything that's going on around them.
It's like sitting on your hands while you pray.
like jono said, it makes me feel so ashamed, looking at my own life.
how stale.
and selfish.
ther'es so much more i can do.
i'm not passive, i'm just inactive.
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