SkIiNg + other things

haha the title looks like "skling"..but no, it's SKIING!!

i went skiing yesterday...owned the bunny hills!! but then got owned on everything else. i wiped out on all the hills (blues and black diamonds) except maybe three of them. the scariest thing was looking at a very steep hill, (or any hill) and not being able to see the bottom. it's like not knowing what will happen in the future. it IS not knowing what will happen in the future.

ahhh, anyways, the most comforting thing that happened: EVERY time one of us wiped out--which was a lot--(and was mostly either me or my mom) all the others stopped to help. or at least stopped to wait. well, except for me, since i didn't know how to stop and went too fast. :$ i give thanks for the falls, cuz "you fall so you can get back up" -Alfred (in Batman Begins). in any case..SSOOOOO fun!!! i can't wait to go again!!

and other things i can't wait for:
-softball
-completing my personal goal #2
-high school to END --> summer!!!!
-getting an accountability/prayer partner
-both TC's
-seeing CR friends again

some things to pray for:
-Daniel--> new programs, leaders/counselors, spiritual growth (don't cancel bible study!!!!!)
-personal goal #2
-TC---> team, humbleness, attendees

now that i'm thinking about Daniel...singsperation....it frustrates me so much not to know what to say in between the songs or how to communicate with the team or just how to lead in general. i feel like such a bad leader, i don't know how to encourage them. i'm just hoping they don't feel DIScouraged whenever i criticize or make really last minute decisions for the format of the songs or what to sing, etc etc. i give thanks for their improvising skills, for not knowing whats going on, and just following me when i start out....or start going all over the place. :|
if only i could learn to actually put to use the criticism i get, or at least ask for it. [sigh]

i guess i'm focusing more on how i myself am leading and how the songs are sounding than the words....but if i worry about the words, i wouldn't get anything done, and just enjoy the song in my head. aaah ok i don't know what i'm saying....must be late.

anyways, tonight's worship was....well...OK. whoops--> singsperation was OK, and worship, ANYTIME we're worshiping God, is GREAT!!! so, tonight's singsperation was OK. and awkward, i was told. and really bad leading, and my big mistake of putting in a somewhat new song. after an hour or so of practicing and only getting half the songs, dan.sing. team (AKA DANiel SINGsperation team....hahaha) scrapped the whole thing and we (fine, more "I") decided to just sit in a circle and sing everything accappella. it was nice actually hearing the rest of the people sing, for once! and when we sang
"Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that i need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice"
(from Word of God speak), I was just like, "YES!!!" i regret not having a verse prepared as planned, but OH WELL. it gave a chance so that we can all find God's Word speaking to us in our own time...er, His own time.

i'm off to hear God's Word speak, then.