after serious contemplation of the dec 9 tc mandatory devos, "crazy people", i have come to the realization that i've never truly been IN LOVE with JESUS. i always think, yea, God is so great, i love him cuz he's so awsome, and blah blah blah, but yea, i have to say i haven't gotten to know JESUS himself the way i could have.
i've always had a problem with authority. no, i don't get in trouble or talk back....quite the opposite actually. i respect authority so much i can never draw close to them, or see them as friends i can talk to or joke around with.
parents.
counselors.
teachers.
coaches.
Jesus.
as a matter of fact, i'm too polite even to my own friends that i don't get close to them either. that's why i get so boring sometimes...haha. shoot.
i heard a quote once that said something like 'politeness is what kills the relationship' or i donno. k, it definitely wasn't that. anyways, my point is, being polite = saying or hiding things so that the other person doesn't get hurt. which kills the brutal honesty, and hence the relationship...etc etc.
*sigh*
how'd i get here? wasnt i talking about loving Jesus before?
well i figure in order to fall in love with Jesus i have to get to know him in all purity, of couse, so one of my goals for..whenever...is to get to know HIM. just start fresh, finding him on my own instead of getting spoonfed on sundays and friday night bible studies.
remind me of that.
1 comment:
haha being polite when it's necessary is all there is to it not being polite all the time....how do you do it? haha!
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