[sigh]

dear Lord...
what can i say? i have no excuse. i've tried and not gone through with it. lord, you've given me everything i could ever ask for. why am i still procrastinating?
Lord, i feel like i'm ... i don't even know. i've gotten selfish and egocentric without you. even in here i've said my own name more than yours.
Jesus.......i've gotten angry, annoyed, rude, you know the rest. i need you more than ever, lord. arrg. why can't i just start and keep it going? why don't i feel motivated? maybe that's my problem. maybe it's that "i" am starting instead of You. then may you start it. in your own time, your own place. why does your plan always have to be so different from mine though?? so unexpected, so...surprising.
[sigh]
thank you for listening, Lord. thank you for your love. i praise you for your plan, cuz i know it's always gonna be better. thank you, Lord. thank you.
daniel, et, tcwt, n, s, a,....thank you lord.